I, Missionary?

Ever have that feeling that you are just way in over your head? Just being called a "missionary" has made both Ellen and I feel that way. It's not that we don't like the term, but sometimes it just feels awkward and weighty. Then we begin to feel that we aren't "spiritual" enough to be called a missionary, or that we don't pray enough or read our Bible enough.

Fortunately, we have seen that many of the great Biblical patriarchs struggled under the same feelings that they were ill-suited to do God's work. Like Moses...standing before the burning bush, telling God that he couldn't do what He was asking. Moses was just a shepherd--all he knew was how to watch over sheep. Now he's supposed to stand before Pharaoh and convince him to release all of his slaves? I'd feel a little out of place, too.

We're sort of in the same place that Moses was; we're heard God's directive, yet we feel so incapable. We've learned that the best thing to do at this point is to throw caution to the wind and jump in with both feet. Just do what He asks, and let him take care of the details. Feeling unsafe and doing God's work is better than feeling safe outside of His work. Jesus's disciples were just fishermen and businessmen. They were not disciples because of their wealth of knowledge or their piety--they were disciples because Jesus asked them to follow, and they did.