I'm Gonna Miss This

The other day at concert in the park, which has become a Thursday summer tradition for our family, I had a nostalgic moment that reoccurs in my thought life about the kids growing up.

For this particular example: The music was playing; I was dancing with Davis; Dan was playing with Isaac, and we were surrounded by many different people, many of them grandparent age and older. Those older folks usually smile at us. I imagine them thinking and reminiscing "remember when little jimmy was that age, wow he grew up so fast." It always plays in my mind like that instead of imagining them saying "remember when jimmy was that age, I'm so glad it is over!" Then I get teary imagining Dan and I being older and Davis and Isaac not being with us anymore. (Dan says we'll be out traveling the world, so I don't need to worry because life will be so exciting I won't have time to be sad.) :)

For me, our boys are growing up so fast and they are only 2 1/2 and 1. I often get teary thinking about them growing up and leaving us, or even just not needing and wanting the hugs every moment, or Davis not giving me his "machine gun" kisses before bed, or calling from his room in the middle of the night "mommy, I need my covers on." Sometimes I think I am being selfish, I mean, wishing my kids would never grow up?! Mourning them leaving the house when they are just toddlers now?! I must be a weirdo!!!

I know I have to be careful to enjoy each and every stage and moment. There are the hours and days when I want to pull my hair out because of not having time for me, a temper tantrum, or a really needy baby. But, even in those moments I am trying to just slow down, realize that this is only a moment, and that while I will enjoy the next season, there will be things that I will miss in this current season.... definitely even the needy baby who wants his mommy just about every moment.

I love our boys so much and it is a joy to watch them grow up. There hearts are so moldable and precious. It'll be awesome to see what God has in store for them when they do one day "leave our home." Had to move this pic to this post!